Cuti = Orang Kahwin.

Tadi aku pegi la kenduri dekat ngan umah aku kan. Staff mak aku. Aku malas nak pergi act, tp since aku da kua dari pagi sampai malam the day before, aku g je lah kenduri tu. Amek ati mak. HAHA. Then aku pun makan2 la. Aku tak makan banyak pun, since aku still kenyang dengan late breakfast aku. 


Then turn out i have to sit next to a kid. Budak perempuan kot. kecik lagi dalam 3 tahun. I was like in a bad mood since I'm sweating so badly. Die tgk2 aku. Then aku pun,ape je budak ni. Aku pun tenung die dgn tenungan 'dem, ko pehal'? 


Budak tu takut kot. Terus dia alih handbag mak die kat tepi dan duduk rapat dengan mak die. Makan pun teragak2. Skali suap, tgk aku. Pastu tgk aku lg. Aku tgk je la balik kt die. Ceh. Ape kes je kan tenung2 org.


Puas ati. Taw takutt? HAHAHA. dem ah. aku tak reti la nk layan budak, esp time aku penat. 


oh btw i hate going to all the kenduri except that ianya kenduri someone important I actually know in person. I sweat like a pig each time I go to one. Dan tak suke bila lepas basuh tangan pun my hand still smells like the kenduri meal. Dem. I should bring my own hand sanitizer. 

Now I know why I don't really enjoy fast food.

tiap kali aku makan fast food, aku akan consume begitu banyak air kosong lepas tu. the throat akan jadi dahaga gila. 

and I know, itu bermaksud there's so much sodium in the food itself. hmm.

on being 17, (once)

I used to say I hate school after I finished SPM. The truth is, I hate SPM, not the school. Okay I didn't like the idea of waking up at 6 a.m. too, but school life is so much relaxing. No repeat if you fail a subject, no extend if you didn't finish on time and no being dismissed if your CGPA is bad. 

I still remember that me and my friends used to hang out a lot after school/on the weekend. Let's just count the final year, when we was 17. After school, we normally have a short break before our extra class started. Sometimes, we took lunch out of school and didn't make it for extra class. We were too late T-T And all the weekend, we had extra classes during weekend at the teacher's house. And we hardly just go to the extra's. Most of the time, we hang out before/after the class. Be it just chilling out, have a drink, or just, out somewhere, we always find time to go out. 

The only class I enjoyed at school was Account. I love the teacher. I love the subject. (I only started to love Acc in form 5) I scored good marks for Acc. I like Acc way more than Phy/Chem. That's when I know what I want to be in the future. InsyaAllah.

School life especially during SPM year can be damn stressful. I would advice the juniors to know the balance. Take time to study, and find time to chill too. All time studying will only make you go crazy. ** except that you're the type who don't go out that much. (and like to study too)

There are times when we held a BBQ at Tok Bali. It was awesome. Yes it was. I pull an all nighters and had fun. Even when after the BBQ I slept like I am dead already. HAHA. And the times when we go for a short trip to Terengganu to accompany our friend to perform there. It was all spontaneous. We hardly plan anything. 

I spent less time at home when I was 17. During weekdays, I only came home in the evening/night after extra class. And during weekends, I had extra classes everyday. Account class on Friday Morn. Physics on Friday Night. Add Math on saturday morning. And some more classes I couldn't recall. See? That's why I hate SPM. I barely get enough sleep because I have to stay up late at night to finish homeworks. 

Senior year at school was good. Nobody dares to bully you. But this doesn't mean I did bully my juniors. I'm not the type who would fight with a them. Even when they are rude. I just don't give a fuck because I take it this way; that I am once a junior too, and I hate seniors who pick up fight with me.  And I don't need ppl to hate me. We were once young too, why can't we understand them? Fighting for junior-senior thing is so childish. I have much more important things to focus on rather than that. 

I still remember the only thing I wanted to do after SPM, is to get enough sleep. Hmm. But all the hard works, all the night oil burnt, all the extra classes, all the time spent, is so worth it. My SPM result was okay and not as bad as I thought it would be. 

Being 17 is great. Being 17 means you should be more matured in your thinking. Make good decision, know what's good for you. Know what you want to do. And just be young and fun. Of course you make mistakes, even when you're 50, you make mistakes too, don't you?

There's no regrets. I take every mistakes as a lesson. Trying not to repeat the mistake, but if I did repeat it, I accept the fact that I'm wrong again. Let's learn one more time. =)

Busyyyyy,,

wake up at 7 today. Got BEL class at 8. Got CTU class at 10. Got BEL class at 12. Break at 2-4. At 4 got Statistics. At 6 got music class. At 9 got choir. At 11 got back. Have to study for quiz tomorrow. And now I'm up at this so odd hours (3a.m). It's been a long winding day, and it is so hard to sleep now. I have to wake up at 7 again tomorrow cuz I have a quiz at 8. 


whoa. if everyday busy begini, makanya xkan ade mase utk pikir bende bodoh2. hahaha. aku suka busy. :D

Hmm.

it has been quite sometime. yup. I guess I'm too distracted with college. And lots of my to do list are not yet completed. Sigh. Hmm. What's new? Quite some things.

Hey it's pretty good here in UiTM. I was placed in a room with my good friends. Awesome. Bilik ini selalu sangat bising. Dan happy. Selalu buat aku xrasa lonely. Well, college life has started dan ia membuat aku sibuk. Classes, things to complete, things to revise, assignments. And I just realize that I actually love studying. It keeps myself busy. Keep myself from thinking about unnecessary things.

Anyway kelas agak bosan. Almost all girls. I mean, where all the boys had been? Extinction maybe. No. Bukan bosan sbb xde boys je. All girls pulak mostly yg jenis senyap. Ngantukk weh. I need time to settle down in this class. Tapi kwn2 yg best ade, so xkesahh ah.

There's a lot of pics but im so lazy to upload it here. Line broadband ini agak xbape laju la. Eh I got my broadband as a present for getting DL. Thanks Mama. I'll try my best to maintain the result.

My emotion had been through a hell of a rollercoaster ride. Sometimes I felt super strong that nothing can put me down, and sometimes I am at my lowest that a single word might break me. Kadang2 aku benci someone, tapi kadang2 aku sedar, aku yg bodoh. Sometimes I felt okay, sometimes tears just form behind my eyes. But I have not cried a single tear yet since coming to UiTM. Tapi untuk hari2 seterusnya, xtaw la.

Hmm. I miss home. Next week baru dpt balik. 3 minggu ini agak busy.

Okay I have to stop. It's almost 3 am now and I have to wake up at 7 tomorrow. So, till nxt time. :)