I'm really blank now. I don't know. Things get rough at times but I'm still going strong. Grrr. I guessed things happen for a reason. People come and go with one reason, to teach you at least one lesson about life- whether you realize it or not. And that's what keeping me strong. Sometimes I have difficulties to sleep, but I guess it's still okay. I'm good, I'm good. That's what I kept telling myself even though at times I realize, I am not. It's okay, at least I want to be.
I don't know where to further my study. There's a lot of comments, opinions, advices from people all around me. I know they want the best for me, but all of that just makes me feel more confused. After all, they leave me alone to decide on my own for my future. That's good, but that's bad too. Man, what do I want actually? I should be thankful for getting what I want. But I keep telling myself that maybe today I get everything, but I should be prepared that maybe tomorrow God will test me. LOL WHY AM I SO NEGATIVE HUH? But it's true, that's how life goes. I don't know.
Maybe I should do matrikulasi? At Kedah. Or maybe I should go on with my plan to study in UNITEN,Pahang? Or should I do diploma first? Or do CAT first? Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I don't know how to decide. As the last child, I'm used to either my older brother or sisters or parents decide for me. Okay dah, I'm all big now, I should decide. But how? This is my future. Am I going to like Accounting? I heard it's hard, but to me if I work hard, I will succeed. After all I know the basics and do well in it. I had always been a big fan of Prinsip Akaun back then. Oh I think I should talk to Cikgu Dyu and ask for her opinion, too. Or will it confuse me,more? OH SHITTTTTTTT I HATE THIS.
Saye rasa saye patot pegi duduk tepi sungai
sorang2 dan fikir panjang lagi. And yes, I should go back to God.
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