backpacking around life.

In these few days, I had realized a lot of things. I really want to write a long entry, but it's hard to describe things that are too deep to be expressed.

Seriously, I cannot be any happier. I don't even know what sadness mean by now. Sometimes I'm scared thinking of what if my happiness are snatched away from me. I don't know how to live with tears. I could not imagine that.

I realized how perfect nature was made by God. I could smile alone looking at those hills, green trees, waterfalls and etc. I don't want to die yet. I want to enjoy those beautiful sights, for it is the most calming thing for me.

I think I had found what I'm searching for. The time alone that I spent own my own really had taught me something and made me see a lot of things. Those are things I would not be able to see if I am with someone else. It was what was meant by people who said, 'search for who you really am'.

I love my mother. Nothing could beat the love from her. The comfy and secured feeling when we are around each other is the thing I always miss when I am away from home. I do not know how to live if God took her away from me. I believe no one will ever love, accept and care for me the way she did. Thanks mother. I love you.

As what Nami asked in her blog; Do you want to be right, or do you want to be happy? I know I want to be happy, I do not need to be right. But if it was what is right to my family eyes, then I will choose to be right.

I think I know.

I don't think everyone will understand. Yeah.


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